Jus read my last post and tat was Lunar New Year Period. Seems like a long time ago. Then again, it seems like jus yesterday.

Time really flies, was jus talking to a friend tat very soon we will b in the 2nd half of 2006. And wat hv I achieved? Literally nothing. Unlike school days, where I can gauge my achievemts from my examination results. Now as a full time employee, I really dunno how am I to gauge my achievemt.

I'm completed 3 yrs of full time working. But I dunno exactly wat hv I gain. Mayb some financial stability. Mayb more luxury and material stuff. Yet I dun feel "rich". In school, I felt good when I get a good grades. I felt great when I've submitted a report which I've put in real effort. I felt happy when I've done a good presentation. & there is an acheivement when I learn something new.

But I feel nothing at work. Be it I tink I've done a good job, somehow, it doesn't really seems matter. Cos in tis company, there is no job satisfaction here. If my objective is to survive here, there is no worries. However, if my objectives is to climb the corporate ladder, I can't forget abt it. This is nt a place for me. Tis is a male dominant company. Guys & Sales person r e core of tis company. They get promoted much faster, they get better paid n benefits. As a backend admin, so long as I do my job faithfully, I dun really need to strive for anyting.

The gd ting abt tis job is, there is hardly any stress. At least for me. Probably bcos I'm the luckier one, I am able to handle my workload and finish work on time. On and off there are little OT but insubstantial. I've been in tis position and doing my current job for 2 yrs. I guess I'm kinda too familar with the process and issues and somehow it jus turn stagnant.

Anyway, I'm still on a look out for new opportunites. I do hope I get to work in some more interesting field, like marketing, comms, PR etc. 8 hrs at e office desk looking at the PC jus doesn't suit me. But then again, I've been like tis for the past 3 yrs and still surviving....