Have not written for some time.
Recently jus had a chat wif a close pal. Somehow, I am probably quite lost now in life. Otherwise, how wld she mentioned tat I am travelling in circles.
I hv 2 admit tat she is rite. 2 some extend, I am quite unsure of wat I wan in life. All my initiate plans has failed. I know I cannot u-turn and give it another try. I simply dun hv such energy or 'heart' to go thru it again. But then, where do I wanna go??? To move straight, take a left turn, try the right turn?? I simply dunno....
Life is simply unpredictable. U can hv all the plans u like, but nobody can guarantee tat tings will work out as plans. Mayb staying as now isn't such a bad thing. Cos I've no expectations in life.
Anyway, every1, at 1 time or another, will b lost somehow. Being optimistic as I am, I shall jus accept watever tat comes along the way. If it's someting good, I am glad. If it's someting bad, I take it as a learning ground to attain another level of wisdom.
Moreover, some tings, u jus can't determine if it's good or bad.... Wat seems like a bad situation might actually becomes a good 1. You jus hv to b positive.
Well, I probably need to float 4 another few mths or so.... By I get tired of being lost & unsure of life, I might set some goals 2 make myself move forward. Somehow, I quite enjoy my life now, freedom to do wat so ever I enjoy.
But like wat she says, mayb spiritually I am not fulfilled. 'Go play & enjoy yourself, but dun get lost in it for too long' . I guess tis is very impt.
But compared 2 those hit by the Tsunami, I am already a very fortuate person. So, no complaints. :)
*May the Tsunami disaster b over soon*
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